You callin' me out?

Before I get torn a new one for taking an on-camera class when I, in fact, had vowed to focus only on commercial work for the moment, I'd like to explain! I signed up for and paid (in full) for this class before my vow. That's all. I'm glad I'm taking it though!

I think I'm getting better at the whole commercial copy/shmoozing deal. Last week I met Casey Purcell of CESD and I felt really great about it. I applied the notes I had gotten from the past 3 of these things and he told me that I had a nice clean read. I haven't heard from him (yet), of course, but like the others I'm supposed to follow up with improv show invitations in a few weeks.

So I'm glad I'm taking the Jodi Collins class, because as my confidence is growing in one area and I'm trying to get myself out there I can be honing my skills in another one in which I now have very low confidence. Despite my disappointing spirits it's good to know that there is a reason that I have not been uber-successful. Now it's been pin-pointed and I can work the shit out of it.

But, ah, low confidence. It sort of seems like a recurring theme in my career. For some reason I always feel like I'm coming in from behind, that all my peers are ahead of me and that I am constantly trying to catch up. I always feel late to the game. Nothing comes naturally, it all takes lots and lots of work. Maybe I'm too cerebral. Some people just jump right into things but I don't really do anything without careful deliberation. Ever. But, alas, these "peers" give me something to strive for. It's a reason to stretch my limits and push myself to sprint in order to catch up. And since I've had a lot of practice at this, I know what I gotta do.